Family Foundation Building

Never have I ever felt recognised as a part of the family I was born into and yet I keep rebuilding the form of family I believe needs to be remade. It is very difficult to be a part of a family that does not understand or accept me for who I am. So all the time I attempt to bond with a family who cannot understand me.
It is important to feel like one belongs but I understand that I will never be accepted for who I am and the intelligence I possess will always be seen as being ‘awkward’ or too different from what is expected of me.
When we try creating bonds with family it is building foundations, yet I am happier as far away as I can be, we all get on much better.

It is sad to not feel welcome by my sister Anita because I did so much for her to support her as her sister and an Auntie to Gracie that it seems taken for granted all I did. And of course rejected, again. And to rebuild family foundations, should I be allowed to. Thank heavens that I live far away so that I don’t have the rejection nearby.

I wish my family well and I will always be a part of the family that never quite fitted in and ‘good enough’ for their standards.